in the eyes of mum  / Mum Mum (mum)
im speaking for mum jeff,she is hurting so bad jeff. go see her.put her mind at rest your there with her mum and dad and of course her grandson little harry..the things mum says to me.(im full of guilt,.)i should have waved to you the day we drove past your house,i wave every time jeff,every time and my heart wrenchs to think i stuck my nose up at you.i`ll live with that thought forever.
    why didnt i ring you 30 seconds later that fatal night, the crash might never have happened and you would still be here giving me ear ache.
  i wonna be cremated and put there with you jeff.
    i wonna dig you up jeffrey so i can hold you in my arms and tell you i love you my precious little boy of mine.i know we never saw eye to eye all the time but jeffrey if i could have you back id give anything.i break my heart thinking of you following me to the toilet when you was a little boy.
   i know i wasnt always the perfect mum.but jeffrey my little baby boy I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND IM WAITING FOR THE DAY YOU COME GET ME TO TAKE ME TO THE GATES OF HEAVEN WHERE I CAN BE WITH YOU FOR ETERNITY AND TELL YOU ALL THE TIME LOVE YOU.always thinking of you jeffrey.xxxxxxx Close

how time passes  / Kelly Patterson (FIRST neice x )

uncle jeff........i aint bin on ur site for a while,i feel terible.

lookin at all the messages people av left makes me feel so happy,jus knowing al these people cared so much about you.

a young lad called jimmy has jus died in a car accident he was onli 16 n it brought it all bac agen.....seein nan grandad n uncle dean cry,that was so hard, n the night it happened knowing my mum ad lost her little brother n when she walked through the door ,the sadness on her face n the pain i cud see in her eyes n there was nothin i could do...so i jus stood there speechless.
i hope your lookin afta my mum i didnt realise how often she writes to you,she misses you uncle jeff,n i neva realised how much.please try to ease her pain , jus let her know ur here.

i think about you everyday,i think it will get easier n the pain might fade away but it neva dus.

ive ad a good cry tonight,it dusnt seem real til you read all these messages n it al hits home agen.

its the little things that really get me...having to write everything in the past tense...its not fair.

anway....

christmas is comin!!!last year i came n sat up your grave n brought u a christmas card n a cracker n sung u carols....i hoped u liked it!!
i wanted to bring u christmas dinner....but it wud av gone cold n i know how fussy you were with your food!!!
(butter al the way to the edges!!)personal joke!

i have so many great memories with you uncle jeff,to many to write in a little box,but i keep em all safe in my heart.

i jus needed you to know that although i havent bin on here in a while it doesnt mean i dnt think about you everyday..because i do,i really do.

awww uncle jeff id giv anythin 2 bring u bac,but its not gunna happen n dats wat i gotta accept,but its so hard,i dnt think i ever will.

i miss you so much uncle jeff,ill b bac at christmas to sing my heart out to ya!!!

bye for now uncle jeff,i love you so much

always n forever

 x x xya lil niece Kel x x x

x x x x x x x thinking of you always x x x x x x x 

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wish we could have met  / Jody O' Reilly
hiya jeff
 feel a bit rude doin this but ive always wantted to say from all the storys ive heard you and my dad would have got on so well i just wish you had met proply but no doubt your both in heaven haveing a laugh and moaning bout me and kell no doubt stace to and the many other neices and nephews i am unbeleivably gutted that i didnt meet you once again i feel rude but i have cryed many a time with stace and kell you sounded like such a good man and i really do hope you and my dad are really good freinds up there
well wish you were here just so i could get to no you and share the many of laughs that many have experinced
                                  R.I.P  jeff 
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JUST FOR YOU  / Jayne Roberts (sister)

The best and most beautiful things in the world
 cannont be seen or even touched.....
   
      They must be felt with the heart.
                                        ~Helen Keller.

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PLEASE ANYONE WITH PHOTO`S TO ADD TO JEFFS SITE.  / JAYNE ROBERTS (SISTER)
IF ANYONE HAS ANYMORE PICS FOR JEFFS SITE AND THEY WOULDNT MIND SHARING THEM WITH EVERYONE PLEASE GET IN TOUCH AND WE WILL ADD THEM. THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO VISITS JEFFS SITE. Close

hello / Sam Hall
Hello Jeff,
I have all these things to say but when it comes to writing them down i just dont no where to start.  So much has happened, new home, new job, feels like a totally new life, just without you there.  I still try not to think about things too much, just take each new day. Its funny me and dawn were talking and we both do exactly the same when we think about you not being here...we shut our eyes and shake our heads as if to make it go away, push it away.
Couldnt make your firework jeff but thought of you alot, we all went to Scott & Jo's it was a good display.
Kids are both christened now, it was a good day for them and i was really pleased at how many showed up to share their special day.  I take Bets to church every sunday now, maybe Cam next year!  I somehow feel at peace for that 40 mins not worrying so much about death and beyond, i feel the kids are protected now, silly i no.
Anyway always thinking of you although i may not always write here
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i love you  / Stacie Baldwin (hi)
hi dad i love you  and the fire works were good  and mum cried i have got to go my theacher is coming love you love from stacie kaz said hi love stacie x x x x x x Close

fire works went well  / Jayne Roberts (sister)
hi jeff just a note to say hope you liked your fire work this year.old picked a gooden i fink and i reckon you would have been well pleased with it.im now married and still very much on a high,only wished you could have been there in body and i know though you was there in spirit.love you forever little bruv xxxxx Close

getting married tomorrow  / Jayne Baldwin (sister)
hi Jeff,
    getting married tomorrow.4th of november.i will be thinking of you.i'll have a peice of you with me on the day. a bit of your hair around my neck. i love you jeffrey.i hope you know that and im always thinking about you.kisses sent to you in heaven from me to you. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx  hope your there in spirit jeff 2 morrow. Close

MY CHILD  / SELMA FLYNN BOBBO.MEMORY-OF.COM (FRIEND)
"MY child On the day God took you I thought that I would die I wondered where the time went? I asked alot of whys?? With people all around me I felt alone inside From all their words of comfort, I couldn't seem to hide, I thought I might be dreaming That I'd wake and find you here, I thought "This can't be happening." As I wiped another tear. On the day that you were laid to rest My heart broke yet again, I wondered if the pain would end, But mostly, I wondered when?? It's hard to be without you, At times the days seem long, Sometimes I just sit crying, When there's really nothing wrong. I wish we'd had more time, Before your life was done. I hope your resting peacefully, My precious child, Close

Still missing you so much.......  / Natalie Hall (Good Friend )
Hi Jeff, just wanted to say hi, why isn't it getting any easier, still hurts, miss you so much.....Joe really misses you.  I feel for him on Saturdays, as that was the day you both used to always do something together, if it was fishing, pottering about in your shed etc..........!
I just have to hear a song on the radio that reminds me of you to set me off...............! I hate it that you are not here anymore, sometimes I feel so angry.........but I am glad that I have my memories which I will never forget.....xxx
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attention all!!!  / Jayne
jeffs favourite night is fast approaching so if anyone is interested then we are doing the same as last year at 7 ok.all are welcome.see you there. Close

why did you have to go and leave us.  / Jayne Baldwin (sister)
oh jeff why did you have to go and leave us.im sick to my heart with my feelings of loosing you.you and i were never really up each others arses so how comes i still feel so empty.my head is still in freeze mode.i picture you at the crash scene,even though i wasn`t there.i see you trying to get up off the floor.i keep asking myself did you know that that was going to be your last moment here.
  i find white feathers everywhere,i keep them all in case there you telling me that your close to me.am i nutter,am i going mad????i see dragon flys,(dragon flys of all things) i wont let people kill them cos i think they might be you.
   i hate people knowing that im still greving for you,looks like its all just a sympathy vote.it aint jeff.i miss me little kid bruva,i miss you slagging me off,i miss you talking about all ya little projects for ya future.not giving a shit whose toes you trod on on the way as long as you got what you wanted.i just miss you so much.
   god getting upset jeff. I LOVE YOU JEFF MY LITTLE KID BRUVA. THAT I THOUGHT WAS IMORTAL  TO THE REST OF US. THE ONE THAT WOULD OUT LIVE THE 6 OF US. KEEP WATCHING OVER ME. XXXXX thinking of you always.dean has got ya fire work sorted. big bang for ya fav day jeff. Close

your nephew is born  / Jayne Baldwin (sister)
hi jeff,had harley on the 8th.well it had to be one of the worst delivery`s ive ever had.I can honestly say i think you done it to me on purpose being he was my 8th child.im sure you was trying to put me off having anymore babies.(well you won!!!!) i think he's gonna have to be my last.To make matters worse i had to return to A and E due to loss of blood clotts and bleeding.It screwed me up in a big way having to face my worse fear's,going to the place where we recieved the news you had not won your fight for life.I kept seeing an image of you going threw them doors on a stretcher and being unconsious.I FELL TO PEICES JEFF IT WAS AWFUL. Yet again i feel you had something to do with me having to go there.i feel you have done everything you can to stop me haveing another baby.Anyway Harely is a handsome young man and i love him with all my heart.Just the same as i love all my other babies.there all special in there own ways.
   I saw Bethany and cameron the other day,they are two stunning kiddies jeff,you would be proud of them.Stacey getting a big girl she`s growing up too fast.Anyway i`ll keep up my visits to your resting place and i will do my best to keep it looking nice for you. I love you with every beat of my heart and i miss you dearly.love always jeff xxxxxxx  Close

Time goes by so quick  / SCOTT BLAY (BEST MATE )
Hi
Mate
 
How quick does time go by i cant believe we are near christmas already!!
Cameron and Bethany are growing up so quickly and Cam is so turning into a mini you its untrue.
We are getting near your best time off the year soon Fireworks nite we all no how much u loved it and the amount off money we used to spend on them but it was well worth it when we let them off especially the finale ones!!!
This year i will do it in style for you and make sure i light up egham again
like we did in our dispalys that we used to have.
Sorry i havent been around but im liveing at my mums 5 days a week now as im still working at mitcham and the travelling was doing me in so i only see my 2 boys and jo at the weekends noW.
Miss ya mate
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The baby is due soon.  / Jayne Baldwin (sis)
Hi Jeff,God i miss you.The baby is due soon and i was kinda hopeing you could be there when i have him.I know you were there when i had McKenzie you made that birth really easy so i was hopeing you could do the same again for me please.Im finaly having a little boy Jeff can you believe it.Im not looking forward to going into hospital,knowing thats where you left this world to be with nanna,tigger and leaha.it`s a bit of a head f**** if i was being honest with myself.
  Oh and jeff also forgot to tell ya im getting married,this time it`s for keeps.You thought Lee was a good bloke and for you to say to other people you liked him,well you must of liked him.anyway gonna try and put this new song on the site for you,from me to you.i love youJeffrey Baldwin.just as i love Dean,Darren,Dawn and Sarah.Keeping you close to my heart is just where you belong Jeff. buy for now.XXXXXXXXXXX Close

IF ANYONE HAS ANY PICTURES FEEL WELCOME TO SEND THEM TO ME TO ADD  / JAYNE BALDWIN (BIG SISTER )
IF ANYONE HAS ANY PICTURES AND THEY FEEL THEY WOULD LIKE TO SHARE THEM WITH EVERYONE ELSE THEN PLEASE PLEASE COULD YOU SEND THEM TO EITHER DEAN OR I AND WE WILL ONLY BE TOO HAPPY TO  PUT THEM ON JEFFS SITE.THANK YOU. Close

One year on and it doesnt get any easier!!  / SCOTT BLAY (BEST MATE )
Hi

Mate what can i say it only seems like yesterday when we helped your dad move to devon as that was the last time we saw each other and im glad we spent that weekend together driving around in that hire lorry thrashing the pants off it and u giveing vebal abuse to people that cut u up and ur grandad refuseing to move if u didnt take his push bike hehe.
You weer one of a kind mate and there is not a day that goes by i dont stop thinking bout u "U were like a older brother to me mate and that the truth" We are putting the shed up at my new house tomorrow,Joe ,Dan,and my dad are gonna be helping me but wont be the same u no mate u were always there to help no mater what but i no u will be there in spirit to make sure everything goes ok with no problems as if that didint always happen ah mate!!!!
My 2 boys are really growng up fast now mate aaron still asks about u and gets upset sometimes and jay is just a pain in the bum like he has the devil in him.
Cameron and Bets are really growing up fast 2 Cameron is gonna be the spitting image of you mate and i think Bets is gonna become an artist as the way she draws is amazeing mate u would be dead proud "Sam is doing a a fantastic job bringing them up mate" Sam is one in a million mate just like u used to say to me.
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still thinking of you x  / Kelly Patterson (niece)

ive been thinking about you lots latley uncle jeff i cant believe how much i miss you its horrible i wish i could see your face again please let me know you you are around,i love you so much uncle jeff thinking of you always x x x x x x

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Hello Jeff  / Luke Hooper (Nephew)
Hows it going mate? been thinking about you recently, got a few things to say, one, im now 17 man, hopefully ill be driving soon, i remember you telling me that you'd teach me how to drive and that, two, i met a beautiful girl a few months ago, but for some reason we split up just yesterday, i dont know why mate, i really like her to, in fact love her, you were always the person to come to if i had a problem, i just wish there is someway that you can advise me on what to do now mate. I drove past the crash site in a friends car the other day, its nice to see there are still flowers there even a year on it hasnt got any easier mate, i still miss you loads and whenever you next get a chance do you think you could just come to me one day for a chat mate like in a dream or something, until next time mate take it easy. xxxx Close